Just got a message from Dina..she told me that Mrs. Mairie passed away this morning..I was shocked as during that time I was cooking...she was a great and sporting person..anyway, wish she would RIP and one day meet again in a place call HEAVEN..Amen..

It seems that I’m becoming more frustrated as life goes on this year. There are so many changes going on in my life that it’s causing me to be angry, yet depressed at the same time. People are expecting too much out of me lately that it’s causing me to become more emotional than I use to be. I try to hide it as much as I can when I’m around my friends, but it’s killing me from the inside that I can’t cry. All I want to do is cry and release all this anger that I’m feeling, but it just stays bottled up inside.
Even at this very moment it feels like the world is coming to an end as I’m going to break down at any time. I really want people to lay off and let me have some free space. I’m sure a lot of people go through what I do on a daily basis, but if you have emotional problems, well it’s just hard to cope with. It comes to the point where my heart just can’t take it anymore. Then other problems start to form that cause even more stress and it just keeps piling up.
Recently, I was shocked by a bad news that one of my friend “backstab” me..it was very painful to know. I’ve known this person for quite some time and to be honest I know some of her secrets. One thing about me, I don’t like telling people or my parents about the negative side of my friends. I think that is her life and her problem. Why do we need to tell our parents about who our friends are dating???what do I get???Pleassseeee la!!!!! What hurts the most..”Like father like daughter” soooooooooooooooooooooooo…busy body with peoples life when he doesn’t even know with who her daughter is dating and sleeping around with..and does he know that her daughter smokes???guess he doesn’t..mayB he thinks her daughter is like an angel..”soooo good to be true”. In front of the father she becames sooooo holy and behind the father…whoa, not only two but perhaps 10 ‘tanduk’ oredi!!
I bet she talked bad things about me to the father. It didn’t end until there, her father talked bad things about me to his colleagues and one of his colleagues was my uncle..(gotcha)..it really hurts tho..really2 do..I dunno if I could ever talk to her anymore..coz I really2 hate backstabbers..hope she enjoys doing what she did..the only thing I could ever hope for is hoping for her to GTH!!The world can be a very cruel place if you don’t know what you’re doing.

..Year-End Lunch TVRC...

....Yesterday we had our Year-end Lunch at TVRC...it was great. The fun part is the eating part...When everyone was busy taking the foods, Me, Siah, Farah, shirley,and Cikgu Rosneh was busy "tapauing" the cakes..Cikgu Suzie was also busy "tapauing" but not the cakes but the foods...After eating, as usual...me, Farah and Sam was so eager to take some pictures..so, we did. At first I thought it was only 3 of us who was interested in taking pictures...suddenly the...tang..tang..tang...it ended to be 'US"...hehhehehhe....

~Miss.Farah, Miss.VV, Mrs. Suzie, Mrs.Sue, Mrs.Ivy, Miss Shane~

Tada.....sepa paling bergaya?????

...Random meme...

Found this meme at Are We There Yet Mom and I tagged myself.

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4.
=From "A treasury of Love Poem" ..(line4) " Whereas May was in his pride"

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
=I can touch Saripa..(bayaya tuh..wakkak)

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
=The 8.00 pm news TV3

4. Without looking, guess what time it is?
=1.45 pm..

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
=1.42pm

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
=Cikgu Chin and Cikgu Suzie's voice

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
=Just now..went to the gas station to help Stella buy petrol for her new NAZA red car..

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
=Ma own blog.."Teachers Diary"

9. What are you wearing?
=Baju kurung...

10. Did you dream last night?
=Yes but I forgot oredi what I dreamt..

11. When did you last laugh?
=Just now wif stella in her car..

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
=(I’m in the office) A clock, a filing cabinet, time table

13. Seen anything weird lately?
=Not really.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
=Like it!

15. What is the last film you saw?
=James bond -Quantum of solace...buring tu wayang..

16. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?
=I’d pay every debt, mine and my parent’s. Then I’ll take all my siblings and parents and my family to a great vacation, preferably in Europe.

17. Tell me something about you that few people dunno.
=I am insecure with my appearance…wakkakakak...

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
=Close the gap between the rich and the poor and wipe out the middle class.

19. Do you like to dance?
=I LOVE to dance.

20. George Bush.?
=Enough already.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
= Violet Annabelle...

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
= Alvey Veroy

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
=wish I cud..

....Poem Writing...

What is the meaning of friendship??It looks easy to define but for each and every one of us has a different definition. During one of my class with my form 1 Bestari students, I showed them this poem and asked them to read aloud. Each and every students in the class was asked on what they understand about the poem and how they define 'friends or friendship'. Well, its true...they have different opinions. It was very interesting to discuss with these 13 year old students. As a teacher I have learnt many things from these kids..

To have a friend is to be a friend,

that's how the saying goes.

so follow these things I have to say,

or your life will fill with woes.

Never whisper or gossip about your friends

at work or school or play.

And be kind to everyone you meet,

each and every day.

But most important

Be sure you never take your friends for granted.

Because having good friends around you,

Will make your life enchanted.

....after the lesson, i asked some of my students to write a poem..some students were very eager to write the poem. I asked them to write a poem about friendship and here were a few poems which they wrote...

Friendship is a quiet in the park,

with the one you trust,

you become the light,

that always shine bright in my life,

throught the darkness night,

when I need someone for help,

you always be there for me,

And I know that you will always care,

Thank you for being my best friend.

(Eva Hanny Juanis-1 Bestari 2008)

Friend is a light that shine on us,

also our daily inspirations.

Always make us smile,

and make us laugh.

Helping other friend to win,

success person they become at last.

(Davrine Milon-1 Bestari 2008)

Friendship is not a work,

that need to be done,

but it is about having fun.

Friends come from many religions,

also from all nation,

helping others be successful

and to win.

Always smile and be happy,

because friendship can make us feel better.

(Davrine Milon-1 Bestari 2008)

Finally I'm blogging

...Sitting in da staffroom..im so bored! all the teachers were very busy walking here and there asking if any of the teachers has finished the Year-end reports...well, as for me..i'm just sitting at ma place surfing the net...its not that i dont have any reports to do...just that i am too tired and lazy to even open the files..wakakkakka(evil laugh)
..Just now i was YM-ing wif Getz..we were chatting about our life and students..then, suddenly sumething went on ma mind..."ermm..why dont i start blogging???at least i can reduce ma stress"......so, I did..
.....I have been signing in this blogger.com for a long time..but i never had the chance to post or write a blog..this new working life has change me internally and externally...the worst part is, sometimes I dont even have time for my own self...i dun even like to see ma own self in da mirror..in BM we say it as "Tidak Terurus"..is it???wakkakak(loud laugh)
...Next week, finally i could breath..bring ma self away from this place called TAMBUNAN...cant wait to be back in ma place called KOTA KINABALU...