It seems that I’m becoming more frustrated as life goes on this year. There are so many changes going on in my life that it’s causing me to be angry, yet depressed at the same time. People are expecting too much out of me lately that it’s causing me to become more emotional than I use to be. I try to hide it as much as I can when I’m around my friends, but it’s killing me from the inside that I can’t cry. All I want to do is cry and release all this anger that I’m feeling, but it just stays bottled up inside.
Even at this very moment it feels like the world is coming to an end as I’m going to break down at any time. I really want people to lay off and let me have some free space. I’m sure a lot of people go through what I do on a daily basis, but if you have emotional problems, well it’s just hard to cope with. It comes to the point where my heart just can’t take it anymore. Then other problems start to form that cause even more stress and it just keeps piling up.
Recently, I was shocked by a bad news that one of my friend “backstab” me..it was very painful to know. I’ve known this person for quite some time and to be honest I know some of her secrets. One thing about me, I don’t like telling people or my parents about the negative side of my friends. I think that is her life and her problem. Why do we need to tell our parents about who our friends are dating???what do I get???Pleassseeee la!!!!! What hurts the most..”Like father like daughter” soooooooooooooooooooooooo…busy body with peoples life when he doesn’t even know with who her daughter is dating and sleeping around with..and does he know that her daughter smokes???guess he doesn’t..mayB he thinks her daughter is like an angel..”soooo good to be true”. In front of the father she becames sooooo holy and behind the father…whoa, not only two but perhaps 10 ‘tanduk’ oredi!!
I bet she talked bad things about me to the father. It didn’t end until there, her father talked bad things about me to his colleagues and one of his colleagues was my uncle..(gotcha)..it really hurts tho..really2 do..I dunno if I could ever talk to her anymore..coz I really2 hate backstabbers..hope she enjoys doing what she did..the only thing I could ever hope for is hoping for her to GTH!!The world can be a very cruel place if you don’t know what you’re doing.